Play-by-Play of Malcolm & Marie
Already I can’t
Highlights the crew first
Love that
Jen Malone do I know her
Sam Levinson
Need a profile photo peeing in heels ASAP
God I love a man who dances unencumbered
She’s too thin but so would I be for this
CIGS!
With a fire starter haha
Man’s blabber eye roll but a good story / makes a point / okay, it’s after a premiere
Everything about life involves race tbh
And shame and guilt plays a huge part
Also I get wanting to stop making it about that, like GET over it already, catch up
“Not everything I do is political bc I’m black”
Amen. Being a representative sucks.
He is very scared. I understand this. But he could be honest. He’s just insecure. Anyone would be. Movie premiere!
She’s sick of being his absorbent material
This has happened many times, she’s dulled by it, too oversaturated by it, I can tell
He remembers her all of a sudden, eye roll
But also it was his night, but, priorities man
Also he isn’t aware she does not want sex of any kind
Duh dude read the room
All about him
You can’t read her
He is the one picking at her
She’s annoyed at YOU, sir, and at how she’s feeling about being at your events, for you
Why is he antagonizing her - idiot
He is insecure
And so is she maybe but less so
YOU are being annoying, that’s all
You don’t want to talk about her feelings
You want to talk about YOU and that’s all
YEP
She called you out
Oh my god — he didn’t thank her
Of course she’s serious wtf
And she’s right. You should feel bad.
It’s too late. You did it. It’s done.
It’s so easy. And not crazy.
She didn’t want to ruin your night. Even though you ruined hers. And you clearly take her for granted — and in public.
Oh Christ. And now we’re discussing cheating.
And it was about HER life?!!!! FUUUCK.
But she made you dinner. And you ate it.
And now you call her UNSTABLE.
And you decide to double down. And insult.
And now it’s NOT BASED ON HER
She’s delusional — but he’s the one shouting out aimlessly alone in a room loudly
Abuse
Yes
Yes
Yes
THANK YOU
STOP EATING IT
NOT AT MY EXPENSE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Literally everyone but me
Abuse me WHILE YOU eat my food
Casually
Your senses versus your agenda FUUUCK
(The dialogue makes me black out here)
Omg and look how they reference euphoria
Please don’t eat that mac and cheese and use words like amalgamation RN I can’t
WHO
....!!!!!!!!!!!....
My cousin??? Did he say Rick?
Too late
Way too late
You don’t get it
She is so far beyond this
What a dumb asshole honestly
Please DON’T TOUCH HER
God I hate men
He will
Jesus Christ
SHE JUST SAID SO AND YOU CLAIMED TO UNDERSTAND
NO KISSING SOUNDS NOW PLEASE
this is what we all feel we have to do
Good god. It’s tragic.
Also she loves him. An emotional terrorist.
Get off her, and honestly, if you’d notice her this would be so much more and easily
He sucks and she is still teaching him
(I do this) AAAHHHHHHHHH
Please stop laughing
She is disassociated but doesn’t know
She’s trying to recover herself and be a sport but he’s taking from her still - he has no idea what he’s done and won’t
She is still talking trying to control the outcome that is evident and not enough
Oh man ouch object lesson
She is burning herself out now
She doesn’t know she is
We are expected
This is expected of us
They won’t do it
We have to
We’ll die from it
He puts her down at every moment
He exists, not her
But she feels seen by him
fuuuuuuuuuckkkkk
She needs a fire starter again
I get it
She is replete
Deplete
He is relaxed, relieved
She is emptied
This is normal
This is fucking always and depressing
He has NO CLUE
Still riding on her efforts,
confused why she’s gone
Learned helplessness
She was and is not PLAYING, ASSHOLE
He “gets” to be shocked, stunned
No
Stop saying her name
Again, it’s all for him
To feel like he tried
She is so accurate
He is SO DENSE
NOT WHEN IT BORDERS ON INDIFFERENCE
and.... now he puts her down
Patronizes her
He’s suddenly slightly right - but it’s unfair- but he is partly, and he goes for it
Shit
But so mean about it
He asked that of her
And now he blames her for his mistakes
He is truly terrible
Now he’s doubling down, meanness
The opposite of effective
He thinks he has a right to yell at her
He fucked up
He is a cop out
She never said those things
He helped her
But he’s holding it against her
He is not making her Mac and cheese
He lost this one
She doesn’t want to win
She wants him to win her
And it’s not hard to do
Fucking asshole
HERE SHE COMES
He used her
Let this woman speak
Forever, don’t stop
His eyes cutting like that
SO HE CAN LISTEN?!!!!!
SPEAK, woman!!! I die
GIVE ME A BREAK
YOUR MEDIOCRE ASS
TOO LATE
It’s embarrassing and it’s cruel and
it makes me regret sharing so much with you
He’s muttering some nonsense in reply
She tells him off perfectly
It never makes a difference
The gains are momentary at maximum
Undress in a self righteous cloud. Run a bath. Feel clear/spoken, finally. Look hot.
He kicks rocks.
No change.
Try to relax and unwind.
He won’t allow it.
Latches onto the wrong thing.
Yep.
His ego only. Got it.
She says what she means.
You can’t take it.
You only heard one part.
Not the right part.
You aren’t listening.
That’s not what she said.
You are irrational. You ruined your night.
You DID HURT MY FEELINGS.
I hate him.
SPEAKING OF IOUs - FUUUUUCKKKK!!!!!!
Oh, and now we’re threatening her
Physically
Sexually
Psychically
Minimizing her importance
Making memories meaningless
Telling her she doesn’t matter
Naked photos of other women
Calling her meaningless in life
GREAT, yeah
Her just taking it, her skin a shield
Stiffly bracing in the bath
Her body is a fortress, an empty shell now
Being bombed and disrespected
Yeah, call her names - nice one
Point out your abuse and call it her problem
You are nothing to be proud of
She is not proud of you, I assure you
She just went to your movie premiere about her
Yep, call her selfish
Break her
Don’t belie how much you need her for you
And then..... tell her you love her.
She is dead.
Dead.
Please go away.
Oh yeah, you really give of yourself
Oh yeah, this apology is so true
Oh thank you, for staying up so late for this
Oh yeah, this is really special
Oh man, this feels great, love a beating
The poetry at this point, so spot on, thanks
Wow, I feel incredible
So bulldozed
Like, raped
Used
Humiliated
It’s great
And now I worry I went too far
And I’m in your house
And I love this bathtub
And this wallpaper
Where did he go now
What can she do now
Now that she’s overdrawn
She gave too much
Let too much in
Had to brace he aerated her whole being
Eviscerating on purpose with feeling
Violently
It’s a scary place to be
Surrender
Playing possum
Being cool
But it’s just fatigue
It’s just emptiness seeing stars throbbing
It’s just a bloody aftermath of abuse
Now she has to be cute
Sweet
Musical
Childlike
Adorable
Innocent
Singing
Showing HIM it’s safe, you see
She is rejected
He walks out
She is like, what went this wrong
He is like, everyone is a bitch to me
Here we go
She comforts him
It’s situational, you see
This has to put the argument aside, you see
She has to calm him down
She knows what he needs
He STILL does not give a shit about her
YOU ARE EXHAUSTING NOT HER
when you’re insecure everything is harsh
Zendaya’s butt is so cute!
He’s so loud and blatantly annoying
Please shut up
SO NOW YOU ARE BEING POLITICAL??
Your loudness is not necessary
She’s right, also, that critic saw how you are at home - apparently it’s visible
I thought it was a good review
“Weatherwoman” - so PC, now
He is an idiot
You are a man
Please be quiet
Honestly
She has gone deaf by now
Who can absorb this much
No one
What a child
He is very needy
Please. Please be quiet.
Algiers. Who the fuck knows.
Did he do coke now? Am I????!
Non. Sense.
She said it was a masterpiece, dude.
FUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKK
She is desensitized. She is a beaten dough.
Her face is beaten in at this point.
This is called noise pollution.
She is not there. She could be anyone. But also, it’s for her. He wants HER to hear this.
This isn’t love.
This isn’t art.
This isn’t imagination.
This isn’t religion.
This isn’t even an opinion.
This is ejaculation. By force. She has to endure it, soothe him.
She has to be cool.
Now she gets to make him feel silly. This is her only route. Her only outlet. Her only value, now she gets to teach him again.
Great. Now she’s so helpful. Wise. Again.
She is so beyond spent. No repayment.
Now she only has insults. And she’s right. But it’s all she has. It’s all she ever had.
She’s back to truth telling. She needs them to be teammates. And she took the mileage.
Now she wants to kiss him. She’s tired. But she’s back in charge. Can’t waste it.
Now the plan is he gets laid.
No consciousness. No consensus. No consequences.
UGH.
She knows. And it feels powerless. Endless.
He’s a good man. I should feel lucky. But what he did was wrong. And if I say so, .....
He sighs.
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkk.
She is right. Again.
NO, and oh my god please, god, have mercy
She never gave that to him
He took it anyway
She lays herself open
She is telling the truth.
He shits in the open cavity
Yet. Again.
What a shitty bad person
Yeah, now you call her names
Put her down
She is angry
Her anger keeps her alive
She is right
About all of it
She is right
She is right
All I have to offer is authenticity
And that’s anything less than incredible?
He is vomiting bad nonsense badly
Please
It’s embarrassing now
No, she hates you more
Sorry dude
You lose
And you call her crazy, that’s great
Great.
She smokes. With a flame thrower.
What are one’s options at 2am?
FUUUUUICKKKKKKKKKKK
HE CAN ROT
she agrees
She is so far past her threshold
She is lying
She can’t bear it anymore
She is literally a torture victim
She is a wild animal - and still in control
He did this
She is a normal woman trying to stop being a normal woman in this normal world
THIS is what happens
I knew it.
She is right. She feels vindicated.
Yeah, put her down. Call it love.
Discuss marriage in this context, yeah.
Make this about “passion.”
Sure. Good idea. Make it all forgiven.
In one fell swoop.
Making getting by about safety, call it love
Keep murmuring subversively so that you don’t feel like you were complicit, condoning
Yeah, call her exhausting
While you want to marry her, fuck her, say it
She is exhausted
By her own efforts with you
And act offended that you sexualize women
WHILE you sexualize a woman in real time
While you talk like an academic
While you call women stupid
While you put women down
While you use a woman
And the woman critic hailing you
He has bad taste
He is a moron
It is who he is
And he’s considered a catch
She is right.
She is right.
Oh dear
Grimy animal
It’s true
He is a hog
Laugh at her, good idea
And now she is performing
Feeling some power somehow
Yeah, call her a slut and no standards
Good idea
Babe. Time to stop arguing with him.
Time
To
Go
You did more than your best. It’s time to go.
She is still talking. But it’s to convince him. To change his feelings. To control the end. To make it not happen. But without giving in.
It’s not venting
It’s politicking
Angling
Giving him a chance to make it right
While not feeling like a doormat
Stating a boundary you are dying to let him invalidate, if only he would admit it.
She is saying what he should have.
She is going his work. For him.
Giving him his words. As always.
He wants her to do this. And he doesn’t really care much. It is for him either way.
She begs him to do it himself for her but when he won’t she does it for him - telling herself it’s for her - again. She does it, she says it, so that someone will. He won’t.
He always asks this of her.
She always has to do it.
She has to say it for him. And he allows it.
It feels so low. So draining. So sad to say it.
She is a skeleton, a vapor of herself now.
Ask me how I know.
His stupid sacred words. Worthless now.
Scorched earth.
A distinctive terrain.
Routine is robotic. This is okay.
Compared to the last few hours, simple routine is hypnotic and comforting
The body is crying out for sleep. Normalcy. Safety. Regular. Just please, no more now.
We force down a crumb. Without consent.
It’s mandatory.
Please be gone. Please be gone.
Please please be gone. I know you aren’t.
I knew she was only away.
How can a destroyed person really leave
When there is nothing left to give
There is nowhere to go
Because how can you even tell what who how where anything anymore
You know it’s not okay so you go as far as you can
Which is not your call
It’s determined by the identity given to you
Because there is nothing left of you to be
It’s the best she can do
After what he does
And what she manages it’s a fucking lot
Even though everyone agrees she deserves more
Everyone agrees she should leave more
Especially her
But there is no more to have from or do with now
And it’s not going to miraculously get better
In this moment the focus is on her
Not his lashes, his fails, her lack of leaving
This moment is what a male director calls a reckoning
A fresh start
A statement on equal terms of a relationship
That tricky complex notion of two hearts
A new beginning
And that’s not what it is. At all.
It’s a graveyard. It’s a funeral.
At best, at very very best, it’s the stirrings of an awakening.
But no time soon.
Ask me how I know.